I get angry at myself for staying in relationships way too long.
I think I have a slight fear of intimacy.
Back when I was dating, the dreaded C word was Commitment. As soon as most men found out I had a child, they ran. If I ever got close enough to say the words, 'I love you,' they ran faster.
I am still very independent in my real life, and that's why I'm always trying to get out of relationships prematurely.
I find human contact repulsive.
I think I'm prone to not being a good guy in relationships.
I'm pretty horrible at relationships and haven't been in many long-term ones. Leaving and moving on - returning to a familiar sense of self-reliance and autonomy - is what I know; that feeling is as comfortable and comforting as it might be for a different kind of person to stay.
Right now the only people I can really fall in love with are people who don't really, truly want me around. Now why do I do that?
It's my nature to run from relationships, because I have never seen a good one.
Television is populated with commitment-phobes.
Fear of commitment lies behind the fear of writing.
People are so phobic and crazed about this word 'commitment.' It's weird. Everyone has taken this word to a new height of morality.
There are people that have closed themselves off so much because they've been hurt so much in their lives.
I think connection makes me vulnerable. Commitment makes me vulnerable, really.
I feel like I'm always having to justify why I haven't kept in touch with anyone from the old days in Stoke-on-Trent, but I'm like that with anybody. I don't let anybody in. I just rely on myself.
Sometimes I felt glad not to be too close to people. I might have been happier, I suppose. On the other hand, I never had much luck with people over the years.
I hate family pressures and family responsibilities. I'm more comfortable as a stranger. I always imagined I could just live in a hotel. I'm afraid of family.
In the same way you pick idly at chips, promising this is literally your last one, you may be in a relationship that you know isn't going anywhere, but you're hungry for love, and it feels less frightening than nothing.
I usually kept everybody at arm's distance.
I try to stay away from forced intimacy.
I'm independent. If a guy is too clingy or needy, I actually get afraid of hurting him - and I can't deal with that.
It was said of me recently that I suffered from an Obsessional Privacy. I can only suppose it must be true.
That common cold of the male psyche, fear of commitment.
I'm embarrassed to say this, but I shy away from memoirs. My feeling is always that I'm saving them for later, so I guess that means I'll reach a point when I read nothing else.
I want to fall in love, I think. I've never. I know. Everyone I know's been in love or in relationships now and... There's only ever been... there's been people telling me they love me, but it freaks me out and I just run, run. I think I'm a bad girlfriend.
