Perspective [is] a luxury when your head [is] constantly buzzing with a swarm of demons.
As a producer, it's not unusual to find yourself on the field, backstage, often with a camera crew and living with constant anxiety of accidentally ending up in the shot.
I'm an actor, so I am always scared. You never know if you are on vacation or that you have been retired and they just didn't tell you.
You were not wanted. You were, at best, tolerated. You had to be constantly on your guard, like an animal in a jungle full of beasts of prey. You experienced it all within the short distance of five miles from the gates of St. Peter's to Park Station in the city.
I tend to be pessimistic about everything: If things seem to be going good, I'm worried that it's going to end; if things are bad, then I'm worried that it's going to be permanent. It's not a very comfortable attitude to have all the time.
When you're shooting, there's terrible pressure, and you never switch off. Every day is like the day before an exam; it's relentless.
Omnipotence is bought with ceaseless fear.
Anxiety affects everyone differently. I spoke to someone who felt like their heart was beating 1,000 times a minute. With me, it was a dizziness, feeling sick, constant, 24 hours a day.
